― Dr. Seuss
I am no spring chicken, and as I come up to my wedding date I am faced with many questions about why have I decided to dedicate the rest of my life to this person. This person is FAR from perfect. He has been the cause of so many arguments and more tears than I could ever count. We have been on the verge of collapse a multitude of times. Yet, he is the person that I long to see each morning when I wake, and he is the person that I want to cuddle with every night as I fall asleep. But why?
To find that answer, I think the quote by Dr. Suess explains a lot. You see, I am not perfect either. I am but a human. Human's make mistakes. I have almost 40 years worth of baggage that I carry with me. I am not looking for the perfect partner, I am looking for the perfect partner for me. I make mistakes, I can be over emotional, and I will Google the hell out of something until I am satisfied that I have found the truth. I love hard, I am obsessive, and since I am a little bit ADD, sometimes I need someone to reel me back in. I need a partner who is strong enough. I need a partner who has no problem standing up to me at the right times, who can admit he was wrong the other times, and who can hold me and remind me that I am loved and worthy of that love.
I have worked very hard at this relationship. I have worked harder at it than any other in my entire life. You see, this man reminds me a lot of Shrek. LOL He is like an onion, with so many layers to peel back. Peeling back those layers will definitely make you cry, but you have to keep going. I know more about this man than any other living human being on the planet does, save for maybe his father. And to my amazement, with each layer, with each new found tear, I keep falling deeper in love with him. Maybe it is my desire to want to help and fix people, or maybe it is a tapestry of life that we are weaving, and with each layer the threads are drawn tighter.
I know that marriages are a lot of work, and I know that we are both humans, and I expect both of us to make mistakes along the way. But I also know, that he will never find someone who loves all of him (his beauty, his secrets, his ugliness) the way that I do, and I doubt that anyone else will ever make me feel the sense of home that I find in him. There has always been an odd sense that we are supposed to be together, and I think that's why I want to slap him even harder when he does something stupid.
None the less, he is the weirdo that I have chosen, and I am the weirdo that he has chosen, and together our weirdness will continue to grow.
I am getting married in 2019!!! I am so excited! My fiancé and I have known each other for a little over 3 years now, and I can't imagine life without him. We have gone through so much together, and being "middle aged", we have had to learn how to help each other sort through all the baggage that we carry around. We were both married once before when we were really young, but needless to say, those marriages didn't work out. It's kind of funny that when we first met, we both said that we didn't want to get married ever again.
My fiancé is a big "nerd". He is a video game and comic junkie. He decided that he wanted his groomsmen to be the "Avengers". Now, I am not a big video game and comic lover, but I was able to find Infinity Stone necklaces, and decided that each one of my bridesmaids, the flower girl, and myself could wear one during the event. This was me trying to fit in with his vision. I want a shabby chic formal occasion, so the challenge has been how to incorporate the Avengers into our wedding, without it looking like a 5 year olds birthdate party. I think I have created some unique and classy pieces that I can't wait to share with everyone. This New Year, pending my lay off from work, I plan on starting a Wedding Series on my YouTube channel. I want to share my excitement and details with you so badly. I just can't help but throw my passions out into the world.
Our original budget had to be upped once we started to look at venues, caterers, and vendors, and now we are maxed out. There is still sooooo much more that we want to do with our wedding, but we are out of money. With me getting laid off in three weeks, it doesn't look like we will be able to come up with extra money for the "extras". If you would like to help us in having the most fabulous wedding ever, please check out my Amazon Wedding Wishlist, and send us something off of it. For ever item off of my wishlist that we receive, I will do a video on how I am going to use that item at our Wedding. Feel free to contribute more than one item. Some of them work best paired with another item on the wishlist.
I want to thank you in advance for being a supporter of my life! Your energy and thoughts have helped me through tough times this year. Without the kindness of friends, family, and complete strangers, I don't know how I would have made it this far, and I am sure everyone will continue to be as awesome and amazing in 2019.
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